Thursday, December 30, 2010.
white christmas.
my cousin, an exchange student from hong kong at ohio state university for the fall 2010 quarter, visited us for a week and left yesterday. it was fun. i hadn't seen her since summer 2009, so it was great to see her. she brought a friend along, so it was nice to have stuff to do and people around the house. (=
but then....i also saw how screwed up everything is with my family. /= i realized how much i wish my parents liked each other more, or at least showed it. everyone's getting older, and with my dad's health deteriorating...well, i just want everything to be ok.
on sunday, i'm driving back to san diego. winter break is over.three weeks, gone. so freaking fast.
but then, there's 26 hours until the year 2010 is over. such a bittersweet year that started with so much sadness. and i've only just started getting myself back together. but now it's all ending so soon. and i'm glad, i guess. the coming of 2011 will help pave the way for lots of good things to come, i'm sure.
a mini recap of 2010 as i remember it without reading my journal or past entries: running away on new year's day,the incidence of january 15th, chad, summer school, living with jasmine &jada, green mickey mouses, mini relapses, moving into an on-campus apartment with the awesomest apartmentmates//roomies ever, halloween, flying home to see my grandparents and uncle, spending $150 black friday shopping, sf adventures, wearing reindeer antlers around everywhere, mono lake, snow!!!, tahoe, and whatever will happen in the next 26 hours.
instead of making a list of resolutions that i know i want to go through with but cannot, i will make a list of three things i will change in 2011 and focus on one thing at a time.
muchlove. <3
but then....i also saw how screwed up everything is with my family. /= i realized how much i wish my parents liked each other more, or at least showed it. everyone's getting older, and with my dad's health deteriorating...well, i just want everything to be ok.
on sunday, i'm driving back to san diego. winter break is over.
but then, there's 26 hours until the year 2010 is over. such a bittersweet year that started with so much sadness. and i've only just started getting myself back together. but now it's all ending so soon. and i'm glad, i guess. the coming of 2011 will help pave the way for lots of good things to come, i'm sure.
a mini recap of 2010 as i remember it without reading my journal or past entries: running away on new year's day,
instead of making a list of resolutions that i know i want to go through with but cannot, i will make a list of three things i will change in 2011 and focus on one thing at a time.
muchlove. <3
Tuesday, December 7, 2010.
death week!!
finals week, but i'm already three exams down, one more to go on friday!!! that meant monday sucked [[back to back finals from 1130am-6pm and then review session from 6pm-8pm.]] but whatever, byebye, solar system, last general chemistry class [[hopefully, if i pass!]], and last calculus class!!!
random stuff i need to get out:
random stuff i need to get out:
* i have no idea what i'm doing.
* i'm officially a "patient" of the counseling and psychological services. that feels weird to say//think about. but i'm finally seeking help. for me.
* i really should have started studying earlier//more productively for calculus. the two problems i didn't get at all were the same ones i missed on the previous midterms. X=
* i'm back to those days where you want to see a certain someone sign onto aim every time you hear that door opening sound. hahah. it's been years, &it's funny because i don't really know this person at all. but i do enjoy "talking" to him. (=
* DRIVING BACK HOME ON SATURDAY! not looking forward to an 8-9 hour drive, but still! WINTER BREAK!!!!!
